“I love the friends I have gathered together on this thin raft”
- Jim Morrison, The WASP
i do love them. i hope i never forget them.
i wish the future would come sooner.
but not so soon?
i still love the present.
you never want to lose what you have now,
and still want to have everything else.
the future, the future.
i want France, be a teacher, the coffee, write, boyfriends, live alone, buy whatever i want, write, write, write.
and still, i wish i could always have my friends, the ones i have now, even knowing i can’t force them to come with me, and also that everything won’t be the same, won’t seem so new if they are there. i wanna start brand new with the same old people, how can it be? i wanna feel the pain of starting a new life all over again, and still i don’t.
i hate it, i love it.
even wishing the future would come sooner, i’ll just live the best of the present.
i hate the present, i love the present.
